I’ve driven on the freeway more times than I can count. I know the freeways I drive on like the back of my hand. But, it was always with someone else in the car. I’ve never driven on the freeway alone.

I cant.

I have this weird unexplainable fear of driving on the freeway alone. A fear I dont understand myself, I’ve driven with my husband asleep the whole 2hrs home from San Jose. So what’s the difference between someone being in the car, but asleep versus no one being in the car? There isnt much of a difference.

The only thing I can come up with is that there’s a second pair of eyes that will catch things you dont see, things in your blind spot. But other than that, why do I feel that I cant possibly drive on a freeway alone?

This poses a huge problem. A huge problem because I’m unable to work outside of my extremely small town (that has NO job opportunities). I’m unable to drive to school by myself if I have to. I’m trapped in my town with the fear of something bad happening if I venture off to the freeway alone.

Weird right? People drive to and from the places I need to get to everyday and nothing bad ever happens to them, so what makes me think something bad will happen to me? You’re more likely to get into an accident IN a town rather than on the freeway! I cant count how many could-had-been accidents I’ve had within my town versus being able to count on one had how many could-had-been accidents I’ve had on the freeway.

Hmph. This sucks. Just thinking about it is giving me anxiety .

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